I Will Not Fight You

I will not fight you
Try as you might, I will not fight you
Beat me down, call me names
Yell in my face and threaten me
You won’t get to me
You won’t provoke me
I will keep my calm
I will be cool
Your storms shall not break me
Your wrath shall not weaken me
I am who I am
And you will not make me lose that

You have taken so much from me already
You have made me feel worthless
But I have one thing you will never have
People who have proven time and again
I can trust them
You will never have my trust
I gave it to you once, you made a mockery of it

But I will not fight you
That is my resolve
I will not let my anger take me
I will not let my wrath consume me
You may think me a coward or weak
Because I do not speak my mind
But what is the worth of speaking my mind
When it falls on the ears of those who do not listen?

No, I am not the coward
I am not the one to have threatened someone
I am not the one to have turned my back when I’ve been needed
I am not the one to have been unwilling to ask for help
I am not the one to cast all the blame on someone else
I pay my dues, you merely posture
I own my mistakes, you simply feign
I recognise my problems, you just see faults in everyone else
Why I ever considered you a friend, I wish I knew

But, I will not fight you
I have far better things to do with my life,
Than waste it on an ungrateful sot like you
We were there for each other
It was never just one way
You came to me first, remember that fact
But you won’t
The lies spill out of your mouth so fast
Your mind is mired in the morass of falsehoods
You’re worthless as consideration, your soul is warped and ugly
I look forward to a day
When you finally realise that every ill omen
Every crucifixion and castigation
Every torture and tribulation
Is one realised and created by yourself
Your lies and deceit
Your selfishness and single-mindedness
All of it created the world you will soon own

But till that day comes, I will wait
Silently, without a cross word spoken
I will do my time in this cage
But soon this bird shall be released
And ne’er more shall you see me
For I have no reason left to care
What comes of your life, your labours or your losses